Bittersweet
01 Feb 2010 Leave a Comment
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how often i assume, i knew almost everything there is to learn. but i am always confronted with the fact that i know very little in life. it makes me feel sad, at the same time happy that there is more to learn in the universe.
my battle against time, my desire to learn everything, bittersweet.
spark
28 Dec 2009 1 Comment
in Life, Random(DateTime.Now())
today, my mom was cooking chicken for lunch… i noticed her redoing the chicken since its still bleeding inside
my father, who is a great cook was complaining about her cooking, after he ate the food.
he explained to me on how its supposed to be done and how my mother never listen to him.
after that i told my mom how terrible she is as a cook according to my father.
and that she doesn’t know any household chores until she was with my dad.
she imidiately went to my dad to confront and complain ahahahhaha.
that was fun, i kept laughing until my head hurts.
9125 days
26 May 2009 1 Comment
in Life
Today, i turned 9125 days old… like every year I make recommendations to myself, Although I failed on one of my ultimate goal to achieve making 1,000,000 $$$ those money I I’ve spent became wonderful experiences that is worth keeping.
Still there are lots to be done, explore, and to experience
so anyways, thats all for now
The Fear
09 May 2009 Leave a Comment
in Life, My philosophy, Personal
Today, a bird got caught on one of my father’s cage where he keeps his chickens. it kept trying to fly out without realizing that there is a big gap between the ground and the cage that it could use to escape. it made me remember a childhood experience where in we caught a bird and attached letters to god on it hoping it would come true…
few years after that experience I found the same letter in a bad state on a ground on where ipil-ipil trees used to grow. I couldn’t read the letter properly except that it says “Dear God” that made me realize it was the same letter from before. From it’s weight and size, I’m sure the bird who carried it had a difficulty of flying. Finding it again, made me feel bad that my letter didn’t really reach god; most of all it made me feel bad that the bird could have died because of it. Because of my innocence/ignorance, i wasn’t able to make the right choice.
finally, I have the chance to correct that….
Plan D
12 Jan 2009 Leave a Comment
so, anyway… i think its time to execute plan D. gonna start following my dreams on 2009 cool plan eh? ehehe good luck to me.
chatting with my 2 year old nephew
19 Oct 2008 Leave a Comment
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i think his gonna be a bright kid when he grows up. at least the computer is helping him learn, while his father is out making some money 
note: i call my brothers ‘loser’ which i got from kamikaze girls where he called his father ‘loser father’ .
Im going home, to be with you
10 Oct 2008 Leave a Comment
finally! I’m going home, damn days flies like shit. i have so much things to do back home and finish stuff i’ve started. i just hope i’ll be more focus, to actually finish some stuff. I also need to do lots of planning for the following years ahead of me. you know… i kinda given myself until December 21, 2012 to fulfill all the stuff i needed to do. damnit! if only i have more money, i could buy cool things like cars, house, big TV and some ‘love’ that everyone’s talking about. prolly if i had dogs that would greet me like this, it would be more dramatic. ohhhh… cool damnit, im im losing focus again…
sometimes my mind just flies by, and the next thing i know i got tons of stuff that needs to be done.
ahhh its 10:01pm already and im still preparing stuff for tomorrows lonnnnng trip. id be going to japan again but only for 3 hrs hhhuuuuuhh..
conclusion – 1
23 Sep 2008 Leave a Comment
in Life
if you where to make a movie out of you life what would be the title?
i never imagined i would be asked this question, i’ve never given it a thought ever…
looking back, i had a great life!, but only the bitter one remains on my memory…..
now i dont want to make my life so uberly dramatic, for everyone to see in the big screen that would be embarrassing!.
i enjoy childhood, high school, smashing pumpkins, my family. the things i love, never really changed, so why change it?, I’ll just stick with the things that makes me happy and let the sad memories pass by. thats a good plan eh? why havent i thought of that? hmmmmm prolly because im so worried about life, with the urge to succeed.
but still i had a good life all in all so why worry? im just gonna be happy from now on…. prolly the mashroom will wear off soon! xoxoxoxoxo
D90 nightmare
02 Sep 2008 Leave a Comment
in Life, Personal, Rants Tags: wtf
I bought a nikon D90 I feel so happy cause now I can crash 1 item on my wishlist, I went back to the philippines, and show it to my friend, who is more into this type of things… then He told me this shit is broken… I look at it and it was indeed broken! how could I have not notice it? so I said its ok.. i got a reciept and I can still avail for the warranty… Im about to go to the Nikon service center when I realize I left my reciept back at the appartment in Scottsdale waaaaaaaaa…. wtf is wrong with the world? I feel so sad.
Then i woke up asking myself where the hell am I?, and thought I havent even brought the Item yet!, in fact its not even out… wtf Im in the appartment!!!… its a nightmare within a nightmare… but I think I can bare with this current nightmare of me having to staying here for another couple more days.. But I need to deside soon if I’d go get me some D90 when it comes out its gonna damage my wallet really bad lol huhuhuh
Patterns
27 Aug 2008 Leave a Comment
Patterns are everywhere you can see it on your classrooms, offices, roads, even on intangible things like politics and religion. Although it seems random, and fascinating but creativeness have patterns too the universe have patterns even the tiniest things moves in a pattern. Although I hate patterns it seems to me it is inevitable to get out of it as I ironically work with patterns everyday as a software engineer.
I have tendencies of following certain patterns, I tend to put the repeat function ON on my winamp, I could listen to the same song for hours without even noticing it, I tend to follow a pattern when I walk. Each time I open a computer I tend to open the browser and check my email even if i just checked it a while ago. When someone destract these patterns I often get pissed off. I plan almost everything I do, but I can be very spontaneous to a point everyone will call me crazy, but still it revolves around patterns. Patterns that I follow, patterns that are embedded deep within my identiy this is me, but I often see myself similar to other people following the same patterns in life.
The most beautiful things on earth moves in a pattern, in harmony with every other patterns around it.
