Weird
16 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
in Personal
just like that you can cut off people you don’t like anymore, this is the internet age.
Random Kindness
20 Aug 2010 Leave a Comment
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it was around 11:pm I was on my way home, as usual I walk. around this time the place gets pretty dangerous.
But I dont mind it or think about it too much, there was a person taking a piss on the wall, a group of people getting drunk. another group just strolling around at this time of hour usually its not for good reasons.
I notice a vehicle was behind me, i walk faster to pass the puddle of water so i dont get splatter when the vehicle moved pass it. i notice it was the police, usually they are around, so they can arrest someone or stopped trouble.
the police van stopped on my side and the driver was talking, i did not notice immediately. but i thought they might be asking for directions.
it turns out they were offering me a ride home, i politely decline since i was 1 block away from home.
thinking about it, it made me really happy that some random stranger was offering help to another stranger.
i don’t even get invited to my relative’s vehicle when they are going home, and to have some random stranger offering kindness made my day and its 11:30 so i still have 30 minutes to celebrate it :p
cold dinner
13 Apr 2010 Leave a Comment
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its 11:08pm im eating left overs from dinner last 4 hrs ago i just arrived from the office. i don’t know if this is what you call a career or this is what you call life sux. so far im enjoying it though.
The nerd resource
04 Apr 2010 Leave a Comment
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I’m opening a new blog, called The nerd resource its basically a blog regarding my interest in: programming, c#, .net framework photoshop and some other technology i find interesting. i find it more useful not to mix it all here, so I don’t need to dig the post from random categories 
need to buy new monitor
21 Mar 2010 Leave a Comment
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so it seems that my old monitor (which is not really mine) is unrepairable. soon i need to buy a new one because im getting tired of using this laptop. it seems to me when im using this machine i cant do anything productive. might be the monitor size, might be the keyboard or the mouse, i miss my desktop all my projects are there, it just an too much of an hassle to access it remotely.
Bittersweet
01 Feb 2010 Leave a Comment
in Life, Personal, Random(DateTime.Now())
how often i assume, i knew almost everything there is to learn. but i am always confronted with the fact that i know very little in life. it makes me feel sad, at the same time happy that there is more to learn in the universe.
my battle against time, my desire to learn everything, bittersweet.
greeting death
03 Aug 2009 Leave a Comment
in Personal
Today, while I was so bored at the office my grandmother died, she was 89.. no one ever told me until i was back home.
I was a bit annoyed by the fact that my parent didn’t tell my grandmother that she was dying. They told me so she wont get depress. but in my head, my so called ‘conscience’ is telling me that no matter how devastating an event is you have to know the truth. Everybody have the right to know the true, the sooner we know it the sooner we will accept the limitation of life. It’s like religion, but I won’t talk about that here…
I feel that everything from my childhood is slowly going away 
The Fear
09 May 2009 Leave a Comment
in Life, My philosophy, Personal
Today, a bird got caught on one of my father’s cage where he keeps his chickens. it kept trying to fly out without realizing that there is a big gap between the ground and the cage that it could use to escape. it made me remember a childhood experience where in we caught a bird and attached letters to god on it hoping it would come true…
few years after that experience I found the same letter in a bad state on a ground on where ipil-ipil trees used to grow. I couldn’t read the letter properly except that it says “Dear God” that made me realize it was the same letter from before. From it’s weight and size, I’m sure the bird who carried it had a difficulty of flying. Finding it again, made me feel bad that my letter didn’t really reach god; most of all it made me feel bad that the bird could have died because of it. Because of my innocence/ignorance, i wasn’t able to make the right choice.
finally, I have the chance to correct that….
